Side effects

As some of you know by reading my blog that I've had some horrible experiences with side effects with my meds.

I had a meeting with a consultant psychiatrist who has given me a great medication that's now counteracting the horrible side effects of haloperidol.  It's called procyclidine

I can now type properly. Hold a good conversation with my family and just feel generally calmer.

I cannot tell you in words how much better I feel already and I'm only one dose in.

Today started off being a terrible day but I'm finishing the day on a better note.

Finally really starting to get the old Rachael back which is what I've wanted since leaving hospital.

It's going to be ok now in my own mind and my own body I now feel like I can just carry on being this way as this is what a normal day for me should feel like.

A bad day with bipolar

So I'm having a bad day with side effects from the medication they've got me on for the bipolar.

I've been out today on my own to a meeting at the job centre to sort out a claim for universal credit.

It took all the strength I had just to walk through the door. But I managed it by myself.

I've got another meeting tomorrow with my care coordinator and mental health team.

Today is just a bump in the road. I'll be resting up the rest of today.

Housework

So I now know I'm getting my life back. I'm able to do a little light housework on a daily basis.

Finally getting my life back after having a husband who wouldn't allow me to do much around the house due to pain and fatigue.

I do miss him as a friend but realise now how much of my independence had gone.

Giving up work was the best thing I have done for my quality of life. I now have more energy to just do day to day tasks. Even if it's only just putting the Hoover around or doing the dishes.

My bipolar seems to be under control with the new medications.

Another Normal feeling day with my bipolar

So finally the new tablets are really beginning to work.

I like feeling Normal for a change.

Those of you without bipolar or a chronic disease wouldn't really understand how good it is to just feel like you're having a normal day.

I will keep up these posts and video diaries because it keeps me positive and aware that I can have normal days like everyone else.

That's it for today

Another normal day with bipolar

So today I decided to have a ME day.

I've cleaned the bathroom which may not sound alot but with my pain levels and the Ehlers danlos just getting out of bed some days is an achievement.

The new tablets they've given me to counteract the side effects of the haloperidol seem to be working.

So heres to hoping I can do a little more tomorrow but I'm not going to punish myself if I cant do too much at once. I will get this flat straight with help from my family and friends.

Heres hoping for another normal feeling day tomorrow. The more I have the more I'm convinced I can have a normal kind of life again.

Flashbacks of bipolar mania

Went to a bipolar class today and met some other people local to me who have bipolar.

It's interesting how similar our manic episodes actually are.

I felt like I was in some reality TV show where someone had reprogrammed my brain somehow.

I also had posted a video on Facebook thinking I was in my own zombie apocalypse. That's when I knew I really needed help from the professionals.

I look back on it now and laugh but at the time it was so real to me and must have been scary for my friends and family around me.

I'm going to be going to a local support group next month.

Until then I'm going to research my condition as much as I can in the hope that one day I might be able to become an advocate for others with the disorder.

An ok day with bipolar

So today is the first day in a few months where I've felt Normal.

Having an ok day is actually a good thing.

I'm neither up nor down.

I hope to have many more days like today when I just have an OK day